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Slowly...ever so slowly....I awaken from a deep sleep. I awaken. I have slept off my throbbing headache. Or so I think. Is my epileptic hangover over?
Can I be so bold as to hold out that hope?
Slowly, I question....
Was that just a bad dream--a nightmare--or did I have a seizure last night?
My headache is gone. Will I have another seizure?
My knees feel wobbly. The firmness of my step tentative. Will I have another seizure? Honestly, I don't know. But, I can't admit that, at least not to everyone.
What can I do? What should I do? What action will give me what I need--what we need, to move us forward from doubt, uncertainty, and fear? God, I don't think I am being selfish. But, what can I do? What should I do?
I can't add to the doubts, and anxiety of my coworkers as to whether I will have another seizure. God knows, some people are convinced that I can have a seizure on command, without my feeding into their fears.
I need their confidence in me. So, what do I do? How do I garner that confidence--that positive energy?
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