Ohhhh...

     In a time when dramatic events, and ghastly acts of inhumanity, few events, or milestones cause an audible response from me.  I imagine I am not alone in that.
     Just now, one such audible response was evoked.  Neil Armstrong died at the age of 82.  To people of a certain age, they remember where they were when they looked at the first black and white images of the moon.  To people of a certain age, they remember where they were when they heard the iconic words, "One small step for man, one giant step for mankind."
     I was in Brainerd on a family vacation.  I was a sick nine-year-old, moaning with an earache--nothing serious, but, I remember.
     Long before cable television.  Long before personal computers, Neil Armstrong took us beyond boundaries of what we imagined possible.
     How do we pay homage--meaningful homage--to Neil Armstrong?
     First, stop.  Take a look at, and return to The First Moon Landing with Neil Armstrong.
     In homage to Neil Armstrong, are we willing to commit ourselves to one action?
     Live our lives imagining a future beyond what seems possible to us now--beyond the limits imposed by our own cynicism and skepticism.
     Challenge our friends, family--our society--to live beyond what they imagine might be possible.
     Let us pay homage.

Zoomer Chronicles: A Fine Line

     This morning, I ventured out to review problematic intersections and issues in Downtown St. Paul.  The adventure heightens my attention to several facts.
    After having three drivers cut in front of me in controlled intersections--in a period of two weeks--it seemed I needed to draw attention to the overlooked safety issues. I want to be prepared for the yet-to-be scheduled time with a television producer to highlight--to focus, literally--attention on public safety issues.
     Several personal facts have come to light in recent days.  While I do what I can to highlight public safety issues for others, I need to combat internal issues.
     First, I have retreated from a healthy pace of travelling within the downtown area.
     Second, timidity and fear replaced determination and confidence--not riskiness, but confidence.
     Cooler weather intensifies my concern that I will be isolated by poorly-shoveled sidewalks, and ice.  I need to back up.  This will be my first winter with Zoomer.  Questions abound.
    What are Zoomer's intended capacities in the outside during wintertime?  Am I realistic to expect that I might have some outside travel capacities during the winter?  What will my limitations be?  What accommodations are open to me?  Are there additional safety precautions that might improve, or extend my capacity to travel outside during the Minnesota winter months?
    I know that I should not expose Zoomer to rainy weather.  I know that I should not expect to navigate ice.  
    I know that Zoomer can--will be able to--navigate the skyway system during winter months.  [The skyway system is a Godsend.  The system of enclosed walkways between downtown buildings--walkways located on the second floors of buildings--do wonders in curbing a paralyzing isolation that would occur otherwise.]
     As wonderful as skyways are, it is extremely important to get outside--to be exposed to the sun--to all elements of the out of doors.  Oddly, prior to Zoomer, having to be outside was not an issue, or priority for me.  I took for granted my capacity to get outside and be outside.
  Interesting what it takes to challenge one's values, and priorities.  Coming days and months will clarify what, if any realignment of values, and priorities occurs.

Comfort the Afflicted...Afflict the Comfortable

     Comfort the afflicted, and afflict the comfortable.
     This paradox troubles me. It has for a lifetime.  Yesterday, I heard the phrase in church.  I felt squeamish--I feel squeamish.  What did I do? Nothing. I left the church, and went about my business.
     I was called to return that message--literally.
     "Patty, will you call him?  He is scared," I was told.  The fear--the short-term fear--was with due cause.  Yet, there is a longer-term trepidation that need not be.  So, what was I to say?
     Comfort the afflicted, and afflict the comfortable.
Easy.  Offer comfort to his immediate circumstances--unnerving acts of nature.
     Comfort [verb] [with object] make (someone) feel less unhappy; console:  help (someone) feel at ease; reassure.  http://oxforddictionaries.com/definition/comfort?region=us
     That is easy.  Comfort resonates with the daily aspirations I have.
     Yet, comfort is only half of what I am being called to do.  Comfort the afflicted, and afflict the comfortable.
     Economic dependence.  Complacency toward changing that dependence.  Finding a first job after college.  Fear.  Trepidation.  These are at the core of what I am being called to address--in every sense of the word.
     Comfort the afflicted, and afflict the comfortable.

     How, in concert with my principles, and values, am I supposed to respond?  Understand--understand the definition of terms.
     Afflict verb [with object] (of a problem or illness) cause pain or suffering to; affect or trouble. http://oxforddictionaries.com/definition/afflict?region=us

     Afflict violates every principle I believe in, and aspire to conduct my daily life.  At least, that has been my approach toward the word.
     If I am being called to afflict the comfortable, then what choices does the afflict offer me to choose?
     Cause pain to.  Cause suffering to.  Affect.  Trouble.
     The first two options are not in concert with my values.  I would never knowingly inflict physical or emotional pain or suffering on anyone, especially a loved one.  I cannot, in good conscience, even consider it.  I understand the impact both may have.  I cannot be a party to effecting those consequence.
     Trouble is more nebulous to me.  I find it hard to quantify trouble, either positively or negatively.
If asked to place the four elements of afflict on a continuum, with the most egregious on the left to the most palatable on the right, I would draw the following continuum.  At the far left would be cause pain.  The next element would be cause suffering.
    The first two elements are relatively close to one another.  The third element would be further to the right--trouble.  On the far right of my continuum would be affect.  If I accept affect, it completely changes my understanding of afflict.  Somehow, it takes the emotional sting I have abhorred whenever I heard the word.

     If asked to identify my modus operandi, when it comes to affecting or seeking to affect people or causes, it is storytelling.  My maternal grandfather was a tremendous storyteller.  He shared marvelous stories about his life.  He was accessible to me, having lived with my family when I was in high school.  Ray was certainly not Catholic, nor liberal politically.  Yet, he instilled in me the value of telling stories--sharing personal history.

     I started this posting not knowing what action to take.  I knew or knew of several facts.  First, comfort the afflicted, and afflict the comfortable.  Second, I was called to comfort the afflicted--literally.  Third, I was called to afflict the comforted.  Fourth, I had a relationship to provide context to any comfort or affliction I might choose to act upon.. Finally, I was a coward in risking myself to provide needed help.  My loved ones have risked themselves to improve my life--to save me at times when I have been without knowledge of how to help myself.  I can, should, and now have taken several actions.  I do not know how they will be received.  Yet, my offerings were--are--genuine, honest, and well-intended. 

Claiming Dreams and Ambitions

    Brian Lamb, the co-founder of C-Span has interviewed many authors.  For a lifetime, I have held writers in high esteem.  I treasure words--the crafting of precise ideas.  Only now am I discovering the opportunity to write.  I have waited to be inspired.  Discipline was not part of that inspiration. No longer working, and physically stronger, I am discovering the opportunity to write more fully.
   Frequent to those interviews are several questions.
   When do you write?
   I craft words during a very special hour.  Between 9AM and 10AM, I stroke and massage the words--the phrases--that bring my ideas to life.  The time is new.  The swimming is well-established in my day's rhythm--incomplete if I miss a beat.  Disciplined in writing, I have yet to be.
Balance between discipline and multitasking I
    How do you write?
    Committing words to a concrete form--be it paper, or computer is changing.  Creation of living, breathing phrases, and ideas flow in the water.  I pray--I threaten--that my short-term memory honor my words--my ideas.  As fleeting as a butterfly--a kite in a March breeze--a pen and pad must be at hand, or at least deposit slips, if paper is nowhere to be found.  As I strengthen my arms, and legs, so too, I sharpen my mind.
    How do you write, in what form?
    Given a choice--long-hand or computer--I take both.  Longhand is my bed's luxury.  A legal pad, a Zebra F-301 black pen.  Perched on my bed, my back against a maroon bedrest.  Longhand before the day has started, as the day ends.  Underneath my cozy mauve blanket, and my white down comforter.  Socks on to warm my cold feet.
   How do you write--in what form?
    At the computer.  After my morning swim, before my daily errands.  To capture the words stroked, and the phrases massaged in pristine, clear pool water.
    An element of writing that I did not understand fully was discipline.  Multi-tasking has never been my long suit.  I want to focus on individuals, rather than a group, when I am at a gathering.  Given a deadline or the opportunity to be with--to share time with--people, I would choose people any day.  I recognize that is a luxury I may afford now.  In the past, that priority may have resulted in my not climbing the corporate ladder.  I will never know.  But, I am not going to lose sleep over it.
    I am inspired by people, situations, and events that incense me.  A reckless driver who cuts in on me and Zoomer.  World conflict.  These are but two of many.  My vocabulary of inspiration has room to grow.  Now I seek to build it.
    Routine.  Discipline.  Rhythm.
    A doctor told me to get up each morning at the same time.  Get dressed as though I was going to a full-time job.  Find something I enjoy--something I can do--and pursue it.  For nearly two years, that is what I have done.  Researching.  Writing.  Corresponding.  Now my wings span opens wider.  Into the water I immerse my creative mind.  What words--what thoughts and ideas--next emerge is beyond my knowing.  I shall swim in the stream, and go with the flow.

Zoomer Chronicles: Ramps...Buttons...Doors...

     One of the most liberating aspects of Zoomer is her capacity to go from my condominium to the YMCA's pool.  Four days a week, I start my morning by riding with Zoomer to the pool.
     Four mornings a week, I honor my right ankle.  After long discussions, and many arguments, my osteoarthritis and my right ankle won out.  No longer did she have the strength to stand by me each day.  After the dust settled, it was clear.  I needed an electric wheelchair.  I needed regular exercise to loosen osteoarthritis' hold on me--her inflamed ego.
     I swim one day a week for each month that I spent working to secure Zoomer.  I swim one hour a day to be of one mind.  I will not be fierce, and argumentative, yet, neither will I roll over and play dead.
      With Zoomer, I traveled to the YMCA.   I gave myself a birthday present.  I am known by name.  Jen, Jeannie, and Matt.  On guard, Lucy, and Collin, among others.  A fellow swimmer greeted me, "Hi, Mermaid."
      Elevated walkways--skyways--enable Zoomer and me to travel to the YMCA whatever the outside weather may be--snow, ice, wind, windchill.  During St. Paul's precious springtime, and summer, Zoomer cries to be outside.  That seemed a reasonable request.
       Ramps are common companions to stairs.  Just as stairs lead to doors--to open doors--so too should we expect of ramps to be.   On one summertime St. Paul day, I succumb to Zoomer's cries.  I pressed the door opener button, and readied myself to guide Zoomer down the ramp.
       Well...I must digress.  Minnesota does not have four seasons--it has two.  Winter, and road construction.  Particularly, a multiyear project to construct a light-rail transit system that will pass through downtown St. Paul.
      Having detoured, let me return to our journey.  Zoomer's cry, "Outside...outside....let me out...let me out..."  So, I pressed the door opener button.  So far, so good.  I positioned myself to go through the door without injury--without a nick, or crash.  Feat accomplished.  It was downhill from there on out.  Or, so I thought.  A orange-and-white striped sign made clear that I had met my match.  We needed to backtrack.  Zoomer and I needed to find another pathway.  Logic told us to turn around to go back inside the building, and traverse the skyways.  But, that was not to be.  We found no automatic door opener button on the outside door leading into the building.  Who would lead someone, raise someone's expectations of entering the building without ascending insurmountable steps?  I have yet to meet the person.
      With my first option a failure, we turned around again.  The hours of swimming--the strengthening of my left upper arm--proved quite helpful.  I re-examined the orange-and-white striped sign.  Fortunately, yellow sandbags secured the sign from a winds' power.  So, I exercised my muscle to lift the sandbag, ever so slightly, such that I could bypass the sign.
      The hijacker and I are in negotiations as to how to assert my needs without losing my inner calm.  Zoomer is grateful for my arm's strength.  I am too.

Oslo...My Beloved Oslo...

     "Oslo, my beloved Oslo."
     Those were the four words that came to me the instant my cousin informed me that Oslo had been hit by an explosion.
     Twice in my life, I have had the joy of becoming acquainted with Oslo.  The summer I graduated from high school, I met Oslo for the first time.  I met her as a young tourist.  Karl Johan's Gatte was the main street of the town--the mecca for shoppers.  Then, there was the majesty of the Oslo City Hall.  Majesty is beyond the comprehension of any American, when they hear "city hall."  Yet, the murals, the marble floors, and the high ceilings may be defined no less than majestic.  Then,  Frogner Park.  Ah, Frogner Park.  Norwegian sculptor, Gustav Vigeland crafted a magnificent study of human form--human beings of all ages, in a multitude of positions.  It is a pilgrimage--an artistic pilgrimage of humanity--that any visitor to Oslo must make.  Knowing the trip might be beyond you, let Google do the walking http://images.google.com/search and enter Vigeland Park.  God was the sculptor for Oslo's other source of awe--the Sogne Fjord.  Words do not do it justice.
     In 1978, I visited Oslo as a tourist.  Little could I imagine that I would have the opportunity to return to Oslo in 2005.  I returned as a student--as a resident for a nine-day stay.  Frogner Park, and Karl Johan's Gatte were not mine to revisit.  I lived the life of a resident--the life of a student--housed in a youth hostel.  But, ah...the view.  The hostel set atop a hill overlooking the Sogne Fjord.  We ate outside and soaked up the sunshine, and the pristine air.
     Oslo is a city of hearty, gentle, peace-loving people.  Oslo is the home of the Nobel Prize.
     At the end of my nine-day visit to Oslo, I had absolutely no desire to return home.  In fact, even when I got home, I longed to return immediately.
      Oslo...my beloved Oslo...

Zoomer Chronicles: Rules of the Road

     Zoomer has asked that I share with you some basic rules of the road.  Zoomer has been very impressed with how cooperative everyone has been.  So, these rules of the road are short, and sweet.
     Pedestrians.
     First, do not block the curb cut, when you are stepping off the sidewalk onto the street.  Second, do not block the curb cut, when you are stepping on the sidewalk from the street.  Third, do not leave Zoomer lingering in the street behind you, because you are dilly dallying in the street.
     Drivers.
     Zoomer would love you if you did not park in front of curb cuts.  Zoomer won't report you to the park police should you choose to park elsewhere, and engage in other activities:)
     Automatic door openers.
     Zoomer means no offense if she declines offers of help.  She doesn't want to injure you.  If you are feeling offended, please look at the cuts and abrasions she has incurred, when she was trying to be gracious to you.  She is appreciative of your offers of help.  Righteous indignation messes with Zoomer's nervous system, so, she does not get riled up about anything.
    Elevators.
    Sometimes, Zoomer may need to refuse your invitation to join you in the elevator.  Sometimes, the elevator is too small for her to maneuver within the elevator.  She enjoys riding with you, when it is possible.

Boredom. Deny. Fear. Befriend. Boredom

     Boredom.  Boredom? Yes, boredom.  Well, that doesn't sound very interesting.  Humor me.  Tell me whether hours of sleeplessness regarding a family member was the breeding ground for worthwhile insight.
     I know three people who are at different stages of their careers, who are facing boredom's reality.
     Two years ago--a lifetime ago now--my health ended a 24-year career, which was boredom's intimate. Not a constant intimate, but, an intimate, nonetheless. 
     When my career ended, my family doctor gave me excellent advice.  Get up at the same time every day.  Find something that you are interested in, and go to it as though it was your full-time job.  Though my doctor had not known me long, he did know that I was reasonably intelligent--he knew that I thrived on  intellectual stimulation.
     Of the three individuals, my influence over them varies.  I am not a confrontational person.  My default behaviors are compassion, and empathy.  I am uncomfortable being over in relation to anyone in my life, so, by that standard, I do not have influence over anyone.  I might strive to be the compassionate, yet, straightforward friend a mentor of mine is.  He does not volunteer his opinions--his judgments--readily, or with any fanfare.  Yet, if I seek out his counsel, he is honest with me, not polite and proper, but, straightforward and caring.
     The young man needs the most guidance.  He yearns for excitement.  He goes one step beyond fearing boredom in potential jobs he might secure.  He denies that boredom is a possibility.  If he denies boredom's possibility, then it will not be.  I would make a lousy mother.  I am too wishy-washy.  I want to offer the example of my life, rather than risking the rejection that a more confrontational approach might render.
     The second individual--a woman--is in the middle of her working career.  She understands the realities of the work world.  She has worked in jobs that were boring--jobs that did a grave injustice to her gifts.  Yet, she understood the basic need to be self-supporting.  Or, so I thought.  Extended unemployment has nurtured an idealism that, at other times might be healthy.  Yet, there is a time in one's career--when seeking employment--when serving as an outraged citizen advocate usurps the energy necessary to find employment.  This woman fears boredom.  She remembers its omnipresence in her work life.  She has discovered social justice--advocacy--as a realm within her reach.  Yet, her fear of boredom has the opposite effect that she wants.  She wants to pursue advocacy.  Yet, her resistance to the necessary boredom in aspects of gainful employment will distance her from the social justice she yearns to pursue.  Her eroding self-confidence is the price she is paying for her fear.
     The third individual--a woman--is in the late stages of her working career.  She is boredom's intimate.  Not a constant intimate, but, an intimate nonetheless.  She does not fear boredom.  She does not deny boredom out of fear.  She befriends boredom.  She has a tremendous threshold for boredom that many overlook--she is not a woman of fanfare.  She has flair.  She has creativity.  But, she is not someone who draws attention to herself as being some poor soul.  She lives life fully.  She pursues her passions.  She treasures people.  She is a loyal friend, and is marvelous to her family. 
     Were I more courageous, I would shake the young man, and the first woman, so that I might rid them of their fear, and denial.  Of the second woman, I need little courage to offer my support.  Yet, I fall short.  I know that I am not faced with the work world.  No longer do I need to worry about finding a job, or changing a job.  During the many years I was in the work world, I denied boredom.  I feared boredom.  I befriended boredom.  Never did I surmount boredom as I want to chastise the young man, and two women for not surmounting.  So, I find it difficult to chastise the three individuals for a standard I could not uphold.
     No longer am I in the work world.  I am working in a different world--creating a post-work world life.  Funny.  You might think that being freed of imposed boredom would be replaced by days of constant excitement.  I don't know what that is.
   Gradually, I am trying to put together elements of what I enjoy, what is necessary, and what I may do to serve other people.
    What do I enjoy?  
    Writing.  Online research.  American history--New England, specifically.  Genealogy.  Letter writing.
    What is necessary?  
    Physical exercise.  Swimming.  Being outside.  People--being in circulation with other people.  Being in community with a worshipping community that celebrates life, death, and all that is possible with the same exuberance.
    What may I do to serve?
    Identify organizations needing the skills, abilities, talents, and gifts I have been given to share with those in need.  Challenge people I know to live up to their potential.  Offer my life--my discoveries--with friends, family, neighbors, and worshipping community--fellow believers.  Be open to the lives of my friends, family, neighbors, and worshipping community--fellow believers.
     This is the structure of a new life.  Much remains to be identified.  I don't think I am alone in striving to create this new life--to recognize boredom, acknowledge denial, confess to fear, and befriend boredom, all in the hope of surmounting boredom.  I confess I have a long way to go.  I have forgotten what it is I want to do.  I am not sure if that it is denial, fear, or both.
     Boredom.  Deny.  Fear.  Befriend.  Boredom.

A Declarative Act of Living...A Defiant Part of Speech

     Make today a declarative act of living, not a defiant part of speech.
     These words were given to me on April 14, 2011, when I took ownership of a red Invacare FDX-MCG.  After hours of labor that enabled me to have a power wheelchair, I struggled.  I did not want to be victim of--a victim to--FDX-MCG.
     I am a woman of words.  I need clarity as my advocate.  FDX-MCG hardly fits the bill.
     Make today a declarative act of living.
     A declarative act is an expression of faith--a belief of what can be, if I will it.  Faith begins in prayer. I pray.  I believe it may be.  I will it. If it be, I pray.
     Do not be mistaken.  A declarative act of living is not a guarantee of a life as I want it to be.     
     Will.
     Will the faculty of conscious and especially of deliberate action.  Will is quite different from defiance.
     Not a defiant part of speech.
     Defy.  Defiant.  Defiance.
     Defy--to challenge the power of; resist boldly or openly; to challenge (a person) to do something deemed impossible.
    Defiant--boldly resistant or challenging.
    Defiance--a challenge to meet in combat or in a contest.
    Most of my life--before knowing how to do otherwise, and long after I was old enough to know better--I have lived in defiance.  I defied expectations of surgeons, "she may never walk or talk," the expectations of educators, "if I were to guess, I would say she might be mentally retarded," and occupational therapists, "here are exercises to help you to learn to use your right hand."
    As my Dad has said, "We didn't if you would learn to talk, but, once you started to talk, we didn't know if you would stop talking."  Though never a stellar student in graded terms, I did graduate from college, then, I completed graduate school.  There need be no apology for my life's story.  Only if I do not share it must I apologize.  Only if I share it will I ever learn.
      Long before graduate school--long before learning to speak--I defied the best-intentioned expectations of occupational therapists.  Carefully planned exercises--customized to my needs--were blown to smithereens.  Honestly, it was so long ago--I do not know if I could know, if I could remember.  How did I perform the assigned tasks with just one, and not two hands.  My intent was not defiant.  My act was.
   Throughout my life, if driven by nothing else, I am driven to excel-lence by, "I don't think you can do that."  "Do you want to make a bet."  Yet, such defiance comes at a heavy price.  I lived an act of defiance.  My body crumbled under its load.
     Far better than any dose of defiance is a measure of will. 
     I do not know the precise content of my acts--of my living.  I do know that I can not live under the destruction defiance delivers to my soul.  
     Make today a declarative act of living, not a defiant part of speech.

Zoomer Chronicles: John Steinbeck

...I discovered that I did not know my own country.  I, an American writer, writing about America, was working from memory, and the memory is at best a faulty, warpy reservoir.  I had not heard the speech of America, smelled the grass and trees and sewage, seen its hills and water, its color and quality of light.  I knew the changes only from books and newspapers....Once I traveled about in an old bakery wagon, double-doored rattler with a mattress on its floor.  I stopped where people stopped or gathered, I listened and looked and felt, and in the process had a picture of my country the accuracy of which was impaired only by my own shortcomings.
     So it was that I determined to look again, to try to rediscover this monster land.  Otherwise, in writing, I could not tell the small diagnostic truths which are the foundation of the larger truth....
     With all this in mind I wrote to the head office of a great corporation which manufactures trucks.  I specified my purpose and my needs.  I wanted a three-quarter-ton pick-up truck, capable of going anywhere under possibly rigorous conditions, and on this truck I wanted a little house built like the cabin of a small  boat.  A trailer is difficult to maneuver on mountain roads, is impossible and often illegal to park, and is subject to many restrictions.  In due time, specifications came through, for a tough, fast, comfortable vehicle, mounting a camper top--a little house with a double bed, a four-burner stove, a heater, refrigerator and lights operating on butane, a chemical toilet, closet space, storage space, windows screened against insects--exactly what I wanted.
                            Travels with Charley:  In Search of America
                            John Steinbeck, pp. 5,6,7.
     My ego is not so inflated as to think that I am riding with John Steinbeck across America.  Yet, the genius of a good writer is that he or she may take you as a passenger--their traveling companion--on their written journey.  I accept his invitation.  He has the room.  I have the time.
    On April 14, 2011, to take liberties with Steinbeck's words, Zoomer, "in due time, specifications came through...exactly what I wanted" was delivered to me.  Frankly, I did not know exactly what I wanted--what was possible to want.  I still don't know precisely what I want--what the life I am to lead is missing.
   As much an optimist as I put myself out to be--as much as I have lived my life as--I did not know whether my body had come to the end of its line.  Had my body closed the line of credit it extended to me to use--to move through my life?
   The intent--the purpose--of my journey with Zoomer is to determine what my physical limits are.  Put another way, how far may I travel.  My mind still works.  Zoomer and I know that that is not enough.  She has not lived through a Minnesota wintertime, but, my stories do not snow her--she finds them chilling.  My goal?  The scope of my pursuits--downtown St. Paul and its environs--is far smaller than Steinbeck's.    
    Wintertime memories cloud my optimism of the distance I may travel.  If I may be so bold--if I may divine--past wintertime's isolation shall remain the past.
    I am not asking that Zoomer and I see America.  I do not seek a four-burner stove, or a refrigerator.  Although heater, and windows screened from insects would be nice.  I can get by with Joy the Joystick, Brainy the Blockhead, and Zoomer.  I can get by with Sally the swing-away arm, Selia the seat recline, Lars the leg tilt, and Ellen the elevate, if I must.
     Zoomer, may we discover our country.  How far may we go?  Where must we not go?  When may we not go?  Night.  On freeways.  When may we go?  During winter?  In snow?  On ice?
    As Zoomer and I embark on a journey to create a new life, I watch a new college graduate take his tentative steps toward a new life--an adult life.  I would not change my place for his--I have gone through the angst that awaits him.  John, may we travel with you to discover our country--to find our way.

Zoomer Chronicles: Global Maps and Positions

     Cartographic scale is deceptive.  Small scale maps minimize potential explorations, yet to be undertaken.  Large scale maps provide perspective necessary to orientation--spatial orientation.
     Zoomer empowers my exploration.  Yet, her power is conditional.  She is not compatible with other powers--any other systems.  Any desire to position myself systematically--globally--beyond the view of Zoomer's position--must be disengaged.
     The medium of old--paper--must guide my explorations.  Yet, all the paper does not determine my explorations.  With faith I begin, while logic and reason I suspend.  Were logic and reason to reign me in, I might never have discovered the Vento Regional Trail...the Ramsey County Medical Examiner...the Alexander Ramsey House...the Science Museum exterior exhibits...the Robert Street Bridge...the Wabasha Street Bridge...Lowertown....
     Logic and reason have not been trashed.  Come snowfall, they will reign me in.  Yet, between now and then, I must take leaps of faith crossing curb cuts, will strong strides crossing streets, and jinx not my adventures with confining precision.
     Zoomer, teach me your ways that we may weather the storms, be steady in snow.  Zoomer, I pray, may we learn how to travel from November to May in fresh air, confined to no inner sanctum.

Zoomer Chronicles: Adventure's Name

     Zoomer v. Invacare, FDX-MCG, Front-Wheel Drive, Center of Gravity.
     Many individuals with scooters, electric wheelchairs, and the like adorn their vehicles with American flags, safety flags, and the like.  I have not motorized the American flag, although I seek the power of protection a bright orange safety flag is promoted as affording me.
     Some people are branded as Jazzy.  I have not been so bestowed.  Were I branded, I would be known as FDX-MCG, or front-wheel drive, center of gravity.  While the balance center of gravity promises, and the power front-wheel drive promises, FDX-MCG or center of gravity is hardly intuitive, much less catchy.
    Wheelchair-bound, or wheelchair-confined is hardly the way I pray that I will proceed through my life.
     If it be so, that is how I will go.  Yet, for now, I vow to take a different road--the less traveled road--toward adventure.
     Adventure--lived fully--must flow from A to Z.  If I am so to travel the road of Adventure, my companion must be Zoomer.
     I hate to be a woman of delusion.  Saying I use an electric wheelchair still stings a bit.  Say it if I must, I will do.  Yet, somehow, Zoomer removes the stinger, and allows me adventure and does bind or confine me to a wheelchair, even if it be mine.  Zoomer is a power-filled princess, while Front-wheel Drive, Center of Gravity is a frightening dictator.
     For now, Zoomer and I shall travel down the road less traveled toward whatever unknown adventure awaits.  We shall travel together, yet, still not alone.  In the spirit of three--Robert Frost, John Hockenberry, and John Steinbeck we shall travel.  Travels with Charley:  In Search of America I must read.

Zoomer Chronicles: Detour's De Tour

     How many ways do you travel to and from home--from Point A to Point B?  One?  Why?  Have you ever been forced to travel from Point A to Point B using a different route?  Why?  Traffic.  Rush hour.  An accident. Construction.  Weather.  Personal commitments.  Professional commitments.  Money.  The environment.
     I intend no judgment. I ask nothing more than, "Why?"
     Have you ever chosen to take a different route to and from home--from Point A to Point B?
    Two months ago, when Zoomer and I met, I established a priority for our travels.  I needed to identify as many different routes to the same destination--to and from our home.  Minnesota summer's sabbatical from winter's wrath is short.  Wintertime indoor sanity essential.
     I have chosen to travel from Point A to Point B using different route--different routes.  Why?  Winter's wrath. My sanity.  Experience--two winters of homebound living.
     So, I ask.  Why do you travel as you do?  What do you know of your backyard--of your neighborhood? What do you see in your backyard--around your neighborhood?
    Construction.  Light-rail transit.  Preparation for progress.  These do, and will define my routes.  Today, quite intentionally, we rode from home to the grocery store.  My intent was to be without a roadmap--with only my eyes, ears, nose, and memory to guide me on my way home.
    Downtown St. Paul, Minnesota is small by many urban standards--eleven blocks north to south, and eleven blocks from west to east.  Yet, within the small area a large sense of adventure breathes.  The simple naming of streets is an adventure of the imagination.  How is it possible for 5th Street West, 6th Street West, and Seventh Street West to intersect?
    OK, so the construction of the XCel Center is the logical explanation.  Yet, that is a drunken Irishman's logic, in my book!  I confess to Minnesotans, I am neither a cradle Catholic, nor a native St. Paulite.  Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned.  I was a closet Universalist, and a native Minneapolitan--Golden Valley girl, born of Norwegians, and Englishmen--truth be told.
   But, I digress.  I do believe that 28 years living in St. Paul bestows on me the right to speak for her downtown--speak of her character.  St. Paul, Minnesota infuses in Zoomer and me her spirit of adventure.  New to her are brightly-colored pianos randomly placed inviting all to sit down and play a few bars.  Engraved sidewalks, markers, and buildings long to be quoted.
    How many ways do you travel from Point A to Point B?