How--By What Spirit--Will I Walk?

I will walk in the presence of God, in the light of the living.

http://www.usccb.org/nab/091810.shtml#reading1 

All of the lessons for today remind us that there is something quite different from the natural body and the spiritual realms of our being.  But because we are so firmly locked into our natural bodies, we often let that realm of our experience dominate our realities.  And despite the problems associated with our natural bodies, we like to hold on to them and would even like to have them back in the same form again when we are resurrected.  We are really quite fond of our earthly selves.  Paul tries to help us to get past that hang up and to think of our futures in terms of the spiritual.   He tells us that we are not going to be resurrected in our earthly forms, but something a lot better.  I am old enough to be pretty glad about that.  My body has all sorts of aches and pains.  Focusing more on the spiritual is getting a lot more appealing for me now that it is quite clear that my natural body is pretty fallible.   

                                                                             Barbara Dilly, Creighton University

      http://onlineministries.creighton.edu/CollaborativeMinistry/091810.html

    I meet this morning's readings as I confront the reality that this 50-year-old body of mine, altered at birth by cerebral palsy, is at the point of diminishing stamina, and in need of today's technology--a motorized scooter.  My head and my heart are yet to be in unison in embracing this reality.  Yet, my heart knows what is coming--what will be.

    Physical balance has been an issue throughout my life.  A different balance presents itself to me now.  In question?

    What is the difference between accommodating to the needs of a physical body, who is aging, and submitting to the physical body's changing needs?  Better stated, what is the difference between being accommodating to, and being submissive to my changing body?  

   I have lived 50 years by confronting life head on, without knowing that that was what I was doing.  If someone said, "I don't think you can do it," my response has been, "Do you wanna make a bet!"

     Before I was able to be defiant intentionally or habitually, I found a way to perform the two-handed exercises the physical therapists designed to get me to use both hands by using only my fully-functioning left hand.  Before I knew what I was doing, I accommodated to my physically-impaired right hand.

     I am less defiant than I was then.  I recognize the need--the wisdom-- to be so.  

     Today's psalm says, "I will walk in the presence of God, in the light of the living."

     "How will I walk?"  The means is clear.  My question is, "How do I bring the spirit by which I lived--walked--49 of my 50 years into harmony with the Spirit by whom I am called to  live--to create?"